GETTING BACK TO THE PATH I HAVE CHOSEN

   In the past few weeks I have been ill and gotten better. As I am ready to go to school I get another illnes and I don't even want to go to school.

    My teacher is calling and sending messages every day and making me to stress every day and I have so many homeworks and works, essays which I have to write so I think that is why I had a panic attack a while ago. Finally  few dyas ago I got my PC back to life thanks to a friend and today I'm getting internet so I will finish installing softwares and work on thousands of reviews and computer works I haven't done and believe me... I have  A LOT to do.

Also I have ton of tests not written and I completely don't understand math  and I have to write 2 test. oh lord!

 But with the return of my PC I think everything will get better - I can write my reviews and do computer stuff and maybe even learn for math test and I will get better in health :)

     P.S. Hey, what should I do if I have lost almost ALL my sick leave notes which gave my doctor? My teacher might not believe I have been really sick and I will have no chance to write those tests I missed.

Damn!

Also adding a doodle I drew after drinking bright pink pills - maybe it all is connected? bright doodles and pink men = bright pink pills

INTERNET HELPLESSNESS AGAINST PANIC ATTACK

SO, the other day when I was at work I had panic attack.

Out fo nowhere my chest started throbbing pain and it  turned in to massive pain also I couldn't breath and had a feeling that I am choking and other panic attacks symptoms. Somehow the first thought I had was : "Oh my god I am having a panic attack!" - older people would have thought that they are having a heart attack and THAT is their problem mostly - thinking TOO much.

Because I was alone I automatically went on google and searched what to do but the most what it said was :

•  Calm down
•  you should know -   you have only a panic attack not a heart attack

and etc.

BUT SRSLY! I googled "what to do if I have a panic attack" so I know I HAVE a panic attack and calming down is almost impossible.lol

SO yeah, internet, you have done it again - you are being useless because when I searched the info you gave me,  nothing than adds and thousands of meaningless words.

 (I red three loong articles to find that I have to breath and it will end  20 minutes later)

OFF THE LEDGE

For a while have been stressing myself out - had a piligrimage with many difficulties, my new job, 40 summer works which I should make til the end of the august and I suffer from lack of sleep.
I have this feeling that I will fall of the ledge any minute.

I totally feel like I am that blond girl and that those hands will release me or my briads will tear and I will fall apart.

INTERESTS?

Right now I have photo praxis at my school in which we learn about taking photos -  diaphragm, focus and etc. also one of the tasks is show in the photo your interests, but I can't take a photo of it!
How can I show kpop? Drawing? or photographing?
I can't just take a photo of my pc with bigbang photo on it or take a photo of my pencil case...
So I'm having this loss of ideas and I'm kinda stressed about this.
also I made these doodles wich kinda is similar with the theme in photo praxis - people with interests or in my case mans face and something around which is interesting to him, islands, water, electricity, diamonds...

For more similar works go HERE